So the water's thickening
His collar's pulled, begin to be aware
It's on, that he needs to focus
Beyond that man, he brings a world of pain
Cause

The war is on, too weak to move
Call it off, sorry refused

So we bend the bracket
Shove it down anything to make it fit
It's on, and being foolish won't cover up
Exposing them as fakes

The war is on, too weak to move
Call it off, sorry refused

So boredom captured another fool
Shredding him to bit it's on
And the more we tense up, avoiding pain
You'll never learn a thing

I simply cannont believe it. I had two assignments due today in my drawing class, self-portrait and 3 contour line hand drawings. You all know that I was nerve wrecked about my self-portrait since I tend to avoid drawing people since I SUCK. Well right before he showed us our grades he gave us a lecture about how when we were in high school we may have been the best, and so forth, but now that we were in college and our peer group has changed and a lot more is expected of us grades don't come as easily. C was average, B was above average, A was excellent (nothing I didn't already know), but my professor is picky and a perfectionist, he told us not to be shocked when we saw our grades. Of course I was freaking out since I have never gotten anything less than an A on ANY art project that I have ever turned in (I still need to work on getting all of my pieces posted, I don't have half of the things I have done up yet). So needless to say that when I got up there to see my grades, I was completely bemused to see what I had gotten......two As. Took me a minute, I was thinking "are those two As next to my name....couldn't be.....yup, that sure does bare a strong resemblence to my name"

I guess.....I didn't suck as bad as I thought. And all those people who said that I wasn't good enough to make it in college level art.....just might be wrong.

My new semester of classes are in full swing now. I'm quite sure that I will be able to tolerate most, easily my favorite class is going to be Drawing I. My professor is brilliant, I was listening to him give a small lecture today about how he feels about art, about how it is one the greatest magic tricks - to learn how to make the eye believe something 2-dimentional is real. I couldn't hope to reiterate everything he said in class, but I was right there with him.

I have been doing some decent sketches here and there to try and improve my skill. I've made a few attempts at humans, some actually turned out not to shabby. Though I haven't been able to post them up yet due to my lovely lack-of-a-scanner. There are also a few paintings that I've done, I don't have a digital camera (I prefer the old fashioned film kind ) so I also require the use of a scanner to upload those.

Oh, back to my class. We did a couple of blind contour-line drawings today (mine were shitty ). And I now know very intimate details of my shoe since we spent an hour of class drawing our shoes, lol. I actually like mine quite well. It was a lot challenging though, if you've seen any of my sketches you know that I hatch a lot and I don't make very clean lines......we he HATES that and wanted us to only use contour lines and rely on line weight to show value and emphasis. Apparently I did a good job with that though, since at the end of that excercise he grabbed my sketch pad (along with a couple others) and set it on the platform in the middle of the room and described to the class in what way each piece was successful. Mine had "excellent line weight, showing the full range of the pencil" and was "very clean and crisp". Not too terrible for my first full class. Though everything that we do in that class is no smaller than 18x24, bigger than I'm used to drawing, and also bigger than all the scanners I've seen.

Though, as much as I love this class.....it is going to kill me. Our first homework assignment is a self-potrait. Not from a photo, he wants us to sit in front of a mirror and draw ourselves. My first thought was "oh shit, he's kidding right?!!!" Nope, the thing I suck at most, people.....and what I suck most of all on people.....the face. And the cherry on top is it has to be me. I do not like the way I look, do I really want to draw myself....I THINK NOT!!!!!

Ah well, every up has its down, yes?

Oh, and one last thing. I found my new favorite quote out of the book that I am reading....."If we don't live for our passions, we die, if only in our heart"

I still can't believe that another year bites the dust. Although I can't say I'm sad for watching it go, I find it hard to believe that so many things have come to pass. I've changed so much. I graduated from high school, I'm in college, I've had some good times, and plenty of not-so-pleasant things have happened. Life goes on, and another year comes to pass.

Here's my toast to the new year....a day late.

My new years resolution.....get to a scanner more often so I can post more (and maybe even get myself a deviant ID on here)

Good luck to you and yours!

.....I only have 19 days left of the semester! Yikes! So much to do and so little time. Thanksgiving break was good, but rushed and extremely short lived. I've got girls in my dorm and some other random people sending comissions my way, which is awesome, but I don't know if I will have time to do them all. Only one girl thus far has offered to pay me for it. I would really like to make some money off of this since it does take time and effort. But I don't know how to go about it without sounding like a prude :/ Oh well. All things in due time I suppose.

In the meantime I am going to worry about finals. December 16th is looking like a pretty sweet day right about now.